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started by krbrownabq on February 1, 2006

Hi all. Haven't been around in a long time. Here's why.

Last fall (Sept. 24), I did my first half iron distance race (Redman Triathlon in OKC,OK). All was going well until, at mile 14 of the bike, I was hit by an SUV. I landed about 12 feet from my bike. The front wheel was bent, but the race crew trued it and I got back up and kept going. I had some nasty bruises on my front side, a gash on my left elbow, and all, but I kept going. I finished the bike and was too swollen/bloody to start the run. I DNFed for the first time in my life.

It wasn't until I tried to put my bike on the roof of my car that I realized I couldn't lift my left arm - separated shoulder and four broken ribs.

So, jump forward a bit. Getting a new bike (Kestrel Talon) and all, but I haven't been able to get back on the bike yet. I'm too scared to ride. I had never fallen/crashed before. So tell me folks, if you've been through this, how do you get over the fear of falling?

A very sad and scared triathlete,
Kelli

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kylie posted 2 years ago.

First off, wow. Crazy experience!

Second, part is just getting over it. I hit a car over the summer (yes, I hit it) and while it made me nervous to go past parked cars, and every now and then it still makes me think "what if" most of the time those thoughts are gone and I enjoy it again.

Some things that might help getting back in:
(1) Ride in an area with few (or no) cars. Or one with a low speedlimit and good visibility. There are some bike paths around where I am that work well for that. I'd say even if you have to drive there to ride, it would be good to get confidence back on the bike without vehicles, and you can slowly add in more traveled areas.
(2) Ride with a friend or two, which often makes a group more visible. If they are ok with it, you might even ask if you can ride with someone behind and someone in front of you. That way you have a security blanket of sorts, and again will be able to get you confidence back while limiting fears.
(3) Falling hurts. But you heal. I ended up with a concussion and no arms for a while (a break and a sprain). But now? Yeah, sometimes it's sore. But it was months and months of good rides, even over a year of good rides. And one crash, and a few months of healing. For all the good times, yeah, I guess I just think it is worth it.

Part of the time you just have to remember... everything is dangerous. You never know when you might get hurt walking down the street, driving a car, in your own home watching tv, or yes, on a bike. But at the same time, remember how much more enjoyable life is with those things.

And come here for support! We'll remind you how strong you really are (as if that story shouldn't prove it to you for the rest of your life). *hug*

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Scout posted 2 years ago.

Kelli, I don't have anything to add to Kyillee's comments...They really say all that I might have contributed...
But I do want to say that I am so sorry that this happened to you.
You are now a triathlete with a significant bike crash history. Stay in the present and look to your future...Focus on all the great athletic accomplishments that are ahead of you! I use positive self talk all of the time. The trick is to catch yourself as soon as your mind drifts to the negative chatter. Rephrase the thought into a positive frame.
Please keep us posted!

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RV posted 2 years ago.

Wow, riding 42 miles with the shoulder and ribs like that - well - that is toughing it out for sure.
I have been hit twice. The first time was riding home from the bike shop - so much for that tune-up. I got flipped up over the hood into the windshield. Actually had to go to the hospital that time. Then again last season got hit - thankfully had a helmet as I took a good head shot. Each time I was very nervous getting back on the bike. kyillee has some good points. I tend to ride by myself, so I rode bike trails to get back into the feel again. I love riding, so I was anxious to get rolling again. You just have to get back up on the bike. Take it easy and stay focused. Good luck.

RV

It takes a long time to get good. - Scott Molina
Slow is smooth; smooth is fast. - Rich Strauss

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vollenda posted 2 years ago.

I was hit by a car last weekend. It wasn't bad - just scraped and bruised (me) and a new wheelset and fork for my bike. I was scared to get back on my bike too, but I had no choice (I don't own a car and I bike commute). Still, I didn't get on my commuter bike for a couple of days and then I didn't ride in the dark for a couple more days. I was too nervous.

The first time is the hardest. I wasn't afraid of falling (because I've done that way too many times) but I was afraid of getting hit again. On my way to work, I had a death grip on my handlebars and braked hard a few times to avoid a car (one was over about 100 feet away :o ). But it got easier every time and now I'm enjoying my bike commute again. I did buy a few more lights to make sure I'm more visible in the dark. I feel like a disco ball now.

Kylie gave you some great tips. Start in a familiar area that you are already comfortable with and take it slow. Wear bright, obnoxious colors so YOU feel more visible. Once you get back on the bike, you'll remember why you love it and it WILL get easier. Good Luck. :)

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dr_rios_ec posted 2 years ago.

Wow...what a experience...
I remember when I was a little boy, about 4 or 5 I was really scared of darkness...it realley freacked me out...to the point of panic...particulary at night...
That went on for a little over a year...no sleep, cranky all the time...I was a troubled little kid...until my granfather gave a flashlight....and he said to me: "Son...the only way to conquer your fears is look in to your demons face to face" But that time the only thing I understood was to turn the flashlight everytime I thought something was out there in the dark....
Now in adulthood...I really understand what he wanted to teach me a long time ago....
So I apply that to everytime there is a challege or fear infront of me....
So Kelli don´t be sad....be strong...stronger....face your fear...stay focused...remember we all do this because is fun....take good care to choose where are you going to start riding as the other guys said. Take one day at the time.
My best wishes to you, and hope to hear from you..telling us that you are back and fighting.... :)

-Santiago
"Man!! Defeat is worse than dying, cause´you have to live with it" -My Dad
"It ain´t about how hard you can hit...it is how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward"-Rocky Balboa

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beads1985 posted 2 years ago.

I have to say you have major cojones getting back on the bike right after the accident and trying to finish.

Like any traumatic experience you have to get over it at your own pace. The mind can be stronger and more fragile than the body.

As posted previously start back riding in a safe place. When you are ready to hit the open road try riding with a few other riders.

You can do it. :D

Nothing to it, but to do it

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TBRAVO posted 2 years ago.

Wow this is a good thread, just what I needed as well.
Thanks to everyone for the advice.
I am going through a similar experience.
Last November I was involved in a bicycle accident while training for the Tour de Tucson.
The end result was a broken collarbone (which was not discovered until a week later).
…5 weeks in an arm sling, another 4 in physical therapy, finally 12 weeks out I am feeling somewhat normal.
I started riding again, but now riding really stresses me out (and I normally love to ride).
Hopefully this will pass with time. The thought of crashing again doesn’t bother me as much as the thought of loosing 9-12 weeks of training (but that’s just me).
- T

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vollenda posted 2 years ago.

Not just you...

I first thoughts after the accident were...

*oh my god, is my bike ok? It's not! Waaahhhh!!!
*but I'm supposed to run 15 miles tomorrow
*damn, I only finished 1/3 of my 3 hour ride.
*what are the miles on by computer so I can log them
*You don't understand, I'm training for the LA Marathon - I can't lose any training time!

Everyone was saying at least you're ok. They just didn't understand. But I got off way easier than you two because I only lost about a week of running and swimming. I can't imagine being off as long as all of you. I'll stop complaining now... :rolleyes:

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RV posted 2 years ago.

The last time I got hit, I had just purchased my new bike and was completing my first long ride. As it became evident that I was going to be hit (that slow motion thing) my first thought was that I couldn't let my bike get damaged - It was New! I actually tried to shield my bike from the pickup truck. Resulting with me taking the brunt of the collision on my left arm shoulder and head. The bike came through with nothing more than derailing the chain. Me: bruises and a mild concussion. I was only a mile from home and rode home (not real bright there - as I actually had blacked out for a few seconds). My wife wasn't nearly as pleased as I was that I was able to keep my bike from being damaged.
I too feel pretty lucky that in comparision my accidents were very minor.

RV

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Slow is smooth; smooth is fast. - Rich Strauss

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kylie posted 2 years ago.

While in the hospital I kept asking for my bike and where my bike was and how my bike was (I still wasn't making short term to long term memories so had no idea I'd asked 5 minutes before). Oh, and I kept saying it had to be ok 'cause it is pretty :)

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beads1985 posted 2 years ago.

kyillee wrote:
While in the hospital I kept asking for my bike and where my bike was and how my bike was (I still wasn't making short term to long term memories so had no idea I'd asked 5 minutes before). Oh, and I kept saying it had to be ok 'cause it is pretty :)

Too bad they couldn't give your bike the bed next to you!!

Nothing to it, but to do it

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kylie posted 2 years ago.

My bike was at some lady's house...
yeah, scary! Good thing I couldn't process that thought til after my roommate had already picked it up from her. They wouldn't let it in the ambulence or helicopter, and she had seen the crash and offered to keep it til someone could get it.

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beads1985 posted 2 years ago.

kyillee wrote:
My bike was at some lady's house...
yeah, scary! Good thing I couldn't process that thought til after my roommate had already picked it up from her. They wouldn't let it in the ambulence or helicopter, and she had seen the crash and offered to keep it til someone could get it.

It is nice when things like that bring the best out in people.

Nothing to it, but to do it

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Triguy98 posted 2 years ago.

Sounds like ya need a MTB to get riding again if ya dont get over the initial nervousness. Sounds like a crappy experience. I had a major MTB crash in Jan. After my recovery, it took me a while to be able to ride a technical trail without wiping out due to nerves. Just grin and bear with it.
The first couple rides will be shaly, but youll get over it.

Life is short. Play hard and get dirty doing it.

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zcowgirl3 posted 2 years ago.

What an experience, which I'm hopin' I never have to but everyone has to sometime. I have rode horses all my life, and there is always a sayin' that fallin off makes you a better rider. Also if you fall of your horse you ALWAYS get back on again b/c that horse knows he/she is in control of you. I know it is a bike, no feelings and not alive but like ANOTHER sayin' is, "Cowboy/girl Up". Take what advice you have recieved from here and do what you have to do. If you can ride w/ a seperated shoulder and broken ribs you have courage by far. I wish you all the luck and just get back up on that saddle and ride b/c you love it. Hope this helps, it just seriously reminds me of riding. You're golden! *Bling bling!*

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beads1985 posted 2 years ago.

'Falling is easy, getting back up is the hard part'
:D

Nothing to it, but to do it

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kylie posted 2 years ago.

I thought it was the ground/car/other bike that was the hard part... or maybe it's just my head that is :p

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beads1985 posted 2 years ago.

kyillee wrote:
I thought it was the ground/car/other bike that was the hard part... or maybe it's just my head that is :p

You are here to talk about it,
so I have to say it has to be your head that is the hard part. :D

Nothing to it, but to do it

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krbrownabq posted 2 years ago.

thanks to everyone for the encouraging words. I'm going to try and shoot for a ride later this week.

Kelli

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beads1985 posted 2 years ago.

krbrownabq wrote:
thanks to everyone for the encouraging words. I'm going to try and shoot for a ride later this week.

Kelli

Let us know how you do. :D

Nothing to it, but to do it