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started by TRI_LOVE_518 on May 24, 2009

So for the past coupe of months I've been having a lot of trouble with motivation. I've skipped multiple workouts, taken weeks off, cut workouts short, and just overall have not had any motivation whatsoever and just an overwhelming sense of hopelessness. I've also been plagued by sleep irregularities, fatigue, and muscle aches. I just haven't wanted to do anything for a while. After my most recent mid-run break down, I decided to vocalize my recent issues to my mother, who is a physician. She immediately dragged my ass to a psychiatrist, and lo and behold, I've been diagnosed with mild clinical depression. Joy. It kinda makes sense, though.

Anyways, I'm starting therapy, though I opted out of taking drugs. Overall, I've lost a lot of fitness and self-worth, and I miss how it used to be, especially running. Its time for me to get better and get back on that horse (bike?).

With that being said, how do I start again? Do I completely start over with base, or continue where I left off?

Thanks for the help. This is a fairly personal thing, but I wanted to put it up on here, because I feel like I can trust you guys. Thanks for all the recent help and for helping me to get through this. Triathlon rocks.

"The only one who can tell you 'you can't' is you. And you don't have to listen." ---Nike

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MillMan221 posted 42 weeks ago.

My thoughts are with you, tri_love. While I dont have anything specific to offer re training at base, or beyond ... perhaps just take this period as a "timeout" ...step back, remember why you started in this sport in the first place.

I'm a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason" - maybe your body and mind needed a little rest. Take it one day at a time, remember to smell some roses along the way, and I bet within a few weeks or so you'll be on the road you wish to be on.

Best of luck .. hang in there. Not sure if this helps, but know we're out here and pullin' for ya!

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Why? Many people have asked me... to test my limits ... and to push beyond them.

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TonisTri posted 42 weeks ago.

You are a wise young person, Tri_Love. Few people are brave enough to get help when they need it. And while I don't see anything wrong with those who decide to take pills along the way, I am proud of you for trying to solve your problems without them. Dedicate yourself to getting yourself mentally healthy and I am confident the physical performance issues will resolve themselves. I'm proud of you. Good luck.

"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are." -T. Roosevelt

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Anton posted 42 weeks ago.

There isn't a person out there, who at one time or another hasn't needed help. The smart one's are the folks who get that help. Good on you for dealing with this head on.
Take time now for you...the last thing you need to do is to be all a worry about triathlon and training and such. When the time comes all this will be still here waiting for you. You'll know when the time is right. Get healthy and the rest will follow...
All the best.

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groovyjen posted 42 weeks ago.

Moms are the best, aren't they?

Take care of yourself and be well.

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paganopj posted 42 weeks ago.

Good luck with your therapy. Things will most certainly get better. Maybe it would be good for you to just enjoy fitness for fitness. Go for a run just to run...leave the monitors, straps and gps at home. Go for a ride just to enjoy the day. Swim 'cause its fun, not for a split time. Just enjoy what you love because you love it.....it can really be kinda liberating....anyways, wish you the best.

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Ironmom posted 42 weeks ago.

Good for you for getting the help you needed and figuring it out. All the best as you work through this. If you train, let it be a joy and not a burden to you. Just do the things you love and there will be plenty of time to get all technical and worry about base or build or speedwork or whatever later. It will all come back when you need and want it to.

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firegirl posted 42 weeks ago.

tri-love, i can definitely identify, and like the other posters, really admire you for taking this head-on. kudos for therapy and avoiding meds, as there's no doubt that if you can feel better without them, that would be optimal. if after a while, you feel like you do need a little more help and medication becomes an option, that is not a failure, and does not mean there is anything wrong with you as a person. some people just need a little bridge to get them back to where they want to be. in any case best of luck.
+1 to ironmom. this is supposed to be fun, right?

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prendergi posted 42 weeks ago.

You are very brave in facing the fact that you maybe dealing with something a little out of your control (at least at this time). I have been there and gone through the same with the meds, only to figure out that they really didn't help it was my coping skills. Sometime things get a little bigger than us. There is no shame in seeking help. I hope this helps you get back in touch with the fun aspect of the sport.

Personally, I wouldn't worry about "training." If you want to go for a run, just go run. If you want to go for a ride, then just ride and the same with swimming. Don't put the pressure of "training" back into the mix. Keep active (that helps with depression in general) but don't worry about the training aspect. You need mental health just as much as physical. Right now the mental side needs your attention more. Best of luck!

"The pain of discipline is far less than the pain of regret" - Sarah Bombell

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Joe_H posted 42 weeks ago.

glad you were smart enough to talk to someone about it. my lousy .02 is reevaluate your goals and where you are and go from there. depending on your goals i think you can just pick up where you left off